blame it on the cramps

my cramps have been giving me a hard time since lunch.

and now i am groaning in pain like never before and still can blog about it.
(after a mere 10mins)
today i started off badly. sent out a wrong email to somebody who wasnt suppose to receive it. i am so guilty of myself cos i would never want myself to do the wrong things. partly i am so stress with the whole campaign that i m handling and also some random thoughts running through my mind.

everyone hopes to make the right decision in every step that they make in life. but sometimes certain circumstances were there and difficult decisions has to be made. but do you really need to take the risk?
and confidence? i have the confidence but sometimes when u are too lazy/too sick of convincing somebody about your choice, you gave in. not that u defeated or they've won, but more like 'no point talking' to these silly morons.

ignore me. it's just one of the daes where things need to be spilled out.
those people who have not touch on designing might not know. its hard and tedious when all work are confirmed and suddenly u need to change somethings. and its like doing it all over again. they dun know it, its not like, " snap & change." theory.
u change something, u need to make sure that everything goes well.whether by deleting or adding on details. then u converting them to pdf. again is a tiring process. all they do is, " do, change huh. thanks"

and partly of the cramps, tears flow down like never before. the first time ever, i let go myself to the cubicle. . . . .

gimme a little respect.

da-ta!!

march into march.

*giggles
finally march is here. not that becos my b'dae is on this month thats why i'm so happy. but i got so much programmes lined up and i feel that its such a fruitful month that i started it with a brand new hairstyle.

i have received like good comments on my hair so far and i am goin to keep it short.
for the first time ever, i like my short short hair. (cant stop cam-whoring.)

arrange with the girls for a first time ever get-together b'dae celebration. and i am expecting lots of cam-whoring, good food and 'let's get crazy' dinner. also kerine is getting engaged soon and probably she will be a 24 xiao4 wife, so that mean less gathering..
aiya, got other things to focus ma, rite?

also meeting up tjio, my agent cum one of my good friend. she's such sweetie that i got to reccomend her in my blog. insurance agent with no pushy skills. call me if you need her help in financial planning.

also yihui. one of my BEST friend lah. must mention, if not she will kill me. yep, expecting her as well. and shes coming back to the gym. yipee, another gym-goer. otherwise like i very lonely lor. and din know the other well, so no topic to break ice. must brush up on that. (how to learn huh?)

besides playing, march is also the 'flagship' month for me to get a head start for my career path. i reject some party cos i felt my boss, Celine is so nice to me that i dun bear to leave. so naive .... so yep, definately staying.
what else.. oh yar.

when's the last time someone confess to you that he/she's is falling for you?
i felt surreal and lost.

rachel @ homelessconcept

suspect....

lately i had some thoughts.
i suspect that eating too much chocolate really affects my complexion.
mainly b'cos i am chocolate lover and i cant bear to part with them. and i suspect that they are the culprits to my eye-circles which has been getting very very dark/worst these days. but how could i resist the temptation? but for beauty and for weight, i have a rule:
ONLY DARK CHOCOLATES FOR ME!
the milk one way too sweet for my liking and bad for everything. and i promise not to go for chocolate sprees, eat only the dark unless given by friends, no choice gotta entertain.

1st march, hah! got myself early pressie.
NEW haircut+style.
i always wanted something boy-ish yet feminine but was afraid i cant carry it off. but today, i've done it with additional purple-rish/violet/lavender colors.
i am going to work and play with joy.

bring on the colors, baby!


rachel @ homelessconcept

29th Feb

the leap years.
the movie i wanted to catch in a minute of impulse.
the fact that i have not watch Lilin acted ever since she became a full-time mum, i tot: "why not?"
she somehow inspire me in some way, the attitude of her character. Simple and pretty inside out.
but it was quite a disappointment for me- the movie itself.
very dragging and i would say i cant relate well. mainly i guess i am not born on the Feb 29th? no connection at all. i wish Jean yeo has taken it to a more standard way of delivering the story and also review it & consider it from some other persepctive? its sad to say, even jack neo's production is even better than this; overall! maybe jean herself is born on the 29th, who knows?

Secondly, i am going to my gym-kaki to watch 'Pillowman'. making their comeback this year, with over whelming demand. one of the actor to name would be adrian pang. and also its directed my his wife.

thirdly, i have more work coming up. that means more time to expand my portfolio on VM. now that i had decided to stay put, i hope that other companies can give me a miss. unless the offer is far better, but i doubt so. bleah*

rachel @ homelessconcept

exhausted.

its been almost a week since i had been depressed.

Mainly b'cos EL has not called me to employ me in. But no worries, i'm so getting all over it now. and also i din get to go over 'somebody''s house for a 'get-together'. its really depressing to me, who take things so seriously. Shouldn't have let me know that there is a 'thing' like that and i am not invited.
*breath....

applied half day leave on wednesday and wanted to treat myself for a nice lunch at pantry mamarlade, but something pulled me back.
and it was such a tedious afternoon with the sun shinning bright at me. and only had my lunch at 4pm+. and doze off straight after that.
rewarded myself for a cold after i woke up. stupid me to have the fan blowing directly at my face.

and still suffering from all that virus thingy. grasp!!!
on a brighter note, the weekend is coming. yippee!

rachel @ homelessconcept

research...

more bodycombat classes for me... cos i am currently so addicted to chocolates.

and this week, i almost had hearty breakie every morning.
and carbs, they are killers!

my hair is going for a make-over soon.
lala.. lal.... after months of tortureous moments.
lucky me that i made an appt on a sat. despite sacrificing my BC class, i can indulge for another 2 hours of combat on sunday.
i am thrilled!
so that means 3 hrs of combat on sunday. cos i usually have my 10am BC class. shall go for a lunch breakie after that and went back again for my 2hrs.

lol. next week will be the time for me to burn. 5 days of gym classes schedule in my organiser.

but before that, damn i still got to stress myself to go down to the library to research for my work. i'm so wanted to give up and call for help.

Read, research and relate.
sometimes its not like you dont want to do, its you dun know how to do it.
thats the tough part.

and swearing does not help either.

rachel @ homelessconcept